alone / translation alleine

you are alone. alone at home. you sit on your bed, stare at the wall. you smoke one. the only thing you hear is your heart. You puked from this noise. you look down. you think after. you ask yourself what is left to you. from the friends, neither is there the family or the known. none who could come in the room and you would ask, what are you doing there. you think about yourself and feel bad, because you have reached up to now nothing. you have made too many errors. too many people disappointed. you're leaving too often. leaving of people you promised to be always there. you want you, that you the time simply could turn back. you are doing from the cigarette. your eyes are tired, your body erschopft. of the living. you feel just just empty. your eyes show nothing. only the empty that prevails in you. and now imagine you're sitting day, day out on this bed and stare the wall to.